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I received a message from another OkCupid member that stated: “I miss your journal entries! How’s life treating you?”

I wrote a response to his email, and then decided to post the response in my journal. So, here is a slightly amended version of my response to that question….

UnNamedOkCupidUser,

Sadly, it appears that my OkCupid journal has died. There were a plethora of forces that converged to cause this unfortunate event.

First: I’ll admit that one the motivating forces for my excessive OkCupid journaling was my perpetually single relationship status. Last October I reunited with an “Old Flame”. In January we decided to get married. My wedding is a week from Saturday. I know it is a devastating loss to the dating pool.

Second: I ran out of interesting stories. Believe it or not, there are only so many (non-incriminating) exciting (or not so exciting) stories that a girl can tell. Eventually, I realized that I had written pretty much everything I had to say. My journal had the option of declining in quality (much like the Simpsons and pretty much every decent TV show that has made it past two seasons) or terminating. I could already see the quality declining. And that *would* have been a devastating loss to my self esteem. I don’t like writing crap.

Third (and probably most important): When I switched jobs in January, I was no longer able to access OkCupid at work. If you didn’t notice, most of my journal entries were posted between the hours of 8am and 5pm. OkCupid was a nice way to pass time when I was at work. But it wasn’t engaging enough for me to spend my off-duty hours here. I know, it was a devastating loss to the OkCupid community.

Ok, I guess three reasons doesn’t really count as a “plethora”. But I like the word “plethora” – so I will just assume that there are many other minor reasons that my journal ended that aren’t worth adding to the list. For example, I get bored easily and shift obsessions every few months.

Anyways, the point is that my journal ended and it is unlikely that it will restart. At one point, I wanted to reach 100 entries (I was close). But I didn’t.

Actually – I hope you don’t mind if I post this message in my journal. You aren’t the first person to send an OkCupid message asking why I no longer post journal entries. You are just one of the few people that I actually cared about enough to explain everything to. (For anyone reading this that I didn’t respond to – I apologize — some of you I didn’t care about. Some of you just sent messages at really busy times and I actually thought about writing back — I just never got around to it. It’s possible that I don’t actually hate you. It’s equally possible that I do).

Thank you for caring. Surprisingly, it means a lot to me. Some days I feel very disconnected from the world. Things in my life are going well. It looks like I may be moving to California (again). I’m getting married (as mentioned earlier). I’m selling my house, buying a new house and I just got a swanky 1969 volvo (beige and shiny with red interior). The shiny new job that I was excited about starting last January (about the time I stopped writing) isn’t working out very well. I am bored there which is one of the reasons I am most likely moving to California. I have a new shiny job offer there. So, things are going fine for me. I hope they are for you too.

Kind regards,
Nahgems